So that was a birthday!
I had greetings from so many people. I found myself very grateful for this, with my love, most friends and all my family back in Ontario- I knew that it might be a challenge to stay positive. I think I had a tiny insight into what being old and alone in the world must feel like- it's not just that no one is around, it might just be that no one is left. And at a certain point, maybe you tire of collecting people.
For now, I am embraced, and I feel lucky in this. A couple highlights
- Among other things, my beautiful Kate tucked a slew of multi-coloured little notes into a card, each reading : FUSS- (a nod to me saying I like a lot of fuss on my birthday- these were happily deposited on my head, for the webcam to display)
- Susan from work brought a bouquet (which astounded me), and wrote a nice note,
- a few of us, Rob, Carlos, Shelley and another friend went out to a halloween burlesque show, and it was actually good,
- I had an apparently traditional exchange of birthday wishes with Sean, who shares my birthday, and who reminds me each year that we share a birthday, and gloats about how good he got me at CX when I turned 30... (there is a dim memory that this might have occurred),
- a personalized bubble-bath bottle and contents
Today, I recover. And maybe I start looking into a birthday system, whereby I actually write down and keep people's birthdays. There may not be much hope for me- Denise says it's ok- folks just know what to expect from me. But yesterday I learned that sometimes it matters.
I have another dim memory that I might have said this before... I am going to resist any temptation to read past blog entries...
